Hi i am khalida. 21 year,pretty,muslim girl from a very conservative family.?

when i was 18 my uncle raped me . i know you will feel like i m psycho if i say i enjoyed it . think i m from family where i cant move without burqa, no t v , no outings . now after much protest i joined a BPO . its a new world for me. m earning 35000 INR per month still i am living in that hell. i love my ammijaan and sisters but hate men in my family. still having relations with my uncle , he is 32 and very hunk n sweet for me . i want to marry him as he was first who loved my body but he says no .